My first treatment of taxol was not good. I had severe back pain a few hours after treatment and although that was sorted with help from the on call oncologist, I felt very ill for almost a week. By Wednesday I was at the point where I was ready to stop treatments. Graham and I talked and decided I would try one more treatment and if it was as bad again I would not have any more. If the treatment was going to make me feel that sick for the rest of my life then there was no benefit to it. I believe that healing is not just about living longer. It is about living and enjoying every moment of every day of whatever time you have left. Being continuously sick from treatment would not be living my life to the fullest.
Then on Thursday I had an idea to put a post on our facebook page requesting all 3985 members to send me positive healing thoughts and visualize me smiling and telling them that the treatment is working and I am in remission. By Friday morning I was feeling like a change was happening. When I arrived for the chemo and told the nurse how my week had gone she asked if I felt well enough to go ahead with the treatment. I answered "I have almost 4000 people sending me positive thoughts that this is going to go well so we are giving it a go." She said with that many positive thoughts it had to go well.
The treatment went smoothly, I had no reaction, no pain and I feel like a huge change has swept over me. My appetite has returned and I have energy again. I know this has to be the positive energy coming in my direction. I have always said I still believe in miracles but I think I was meaning a new miracle drug. Now I realize that miracles can come in many ways. I feel very optimistic that I am on the way to remission but I need you all to continue helping.
My treatment days are Fridays. So Please continue to visualize me every Friday and send positive healing thoughts and prayers. Also visit this website on Fridays so that I can see a surge of red dots on our world map. This will help me to see all the positive thoughts as well as feel them. Love to you all and thank you so much for helping me. Julie